Being a parent isn’t easy. Sometimes it all gets a bit too much . . . I don’t think there could be any parent that would disagree with me no matter what their age/status and if there is they are extremely lucky. Although what I would say is that without the hard times, how can we truly appreciate the good? Our Beans are all very spirited little people who like to test their boundaries, they like to see just how far they can push you. Sometimes it can be a little, sometimes it can be a lot; it all depends on how I’m feeling on any particular day and what the day involves.
Last week was a really hard week for me and I ended up in tears every day as a result of how stressed out I felt by my life in general and how much the Beans were pushing my buttons. Most of the time this still centres around mealtimes as that’s when things always seem to come to a head. One day in particular last week I wasn’t proud of my actions at all, I shouted and threw one of their (plastic) plates of food out into the garden when they refused to eat it. I felt very silly afterwards and took myself out of the situation to cool off in the playroom, I guess I put myself into time-out. As a result however, Curly made me very proud as he took charge and encouraged the little ones to stay in their seats to finish their tea without issue, cleared up the mess I had created and then found me to apologise for what had happened as he had been the catalyst that had started the others messing about at the dinner table. He said that he was old enough to know better and that in itself made me cry even more. I too apologised to all the Beans for my actions but I felt totally drained by the time it came to bedtime.
Today I’m heading to London all by myself which doesn’t happen often and I am grateful to be able to take this opportunity to leave the boys with Nanny and Grandad, for as much as I adore my Beans even I need a break from them from time to time. I’ve no doubt I will be bursting to see them on my return and give them all a big hug but for now I’m loving the peace and quiet and the chance to just be ‘me’. This week is a new week and I really hope that things will be better as I definitely don’t want a repeat performance.
Glad you are getting some me time. They do test us sometimes don’t they xxx
Thank you Liska, it was lovely to get away even if it was just for a couple of hours and I did end up with sore feet! 😉 x
Oh sweetheart we have all been there. Curly is such a sweetie for helping with the beans and realising that he had played his part in it too. I hope that you enjoy your time in London today, we all need that time to realign ourselves and plod forward.
I know, every now and then I see a little glimpse of how much he is growing up and starting to think about others and his actions. Yesterday was good, thank you x
We’ve all been there. I threw Iggle Piggle and Makka Pakka out the window a couple of weeks ago! Didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.
Oh dear, I’m afraid I did do a little giggle at that. Poor Igglepiggle and Makka Pakka 😉 xx
I have been there so many times the last few weeks and we all do things in the heat of the moment! I hope you have had a nice break away today, it is good to have a bit of alone time to refresh the batteries. I really think this time of the year is a bit of a nightmare when you have children at school. E is so tired at the moment and very challenging which in turn has an affect on his little sister – roll on the school holidays for a bit of a break from routine.
I think you’re right, everyone seems to be at the end of their tethers. I’m really looking forward to having the Beans at home with me for a few weeks (though I’m sure I shall be just as happy when they go back to school) xx
Aw thank you Monika, it was so lovely to see you again yesterday, just a shame I couldn’t have stayed and chatted longer. I hope you have a lovely summer xx